Im a little scared....

The Chiropractor seems to be helping – I have been twice and he has gotten me into a state of upright walking, un assisted for twice the periods I was getting on my own and sometimes longer.

Today though, I guess I was feeling frisky.

I’m not supposed to pick up ANYTHING or really do ANYTHING strenuous of any kind.

Hank and I went to Lowes and against Hanks imploring, I moved around some plants and then lugged around a water jug to feed my flowers when I got home.

It just felt so good to be doing something!

Needless to say, about 30 minutes later, I was hunched over, unable to even walk up on step into the house and in terrible pain.

Now, I’m using a walker to get around and Hank has had to force me not to try and do house work.

I’m not doing so well at taking it easy.

This is so disheartening.

I can’t believe what has happened to me and I have this sinking fear that I’m going to spend the rest of my life this way.

After all my hard work, getting my body into the physical shape I’ve always wanted.

I just can’t imagine that it could end like this.

I’ve been praying all the time, pleading with God to help me.

I would be a liar if I said that I am not scared.

I am.

This is one of the most frightening things that I have ever faced.

Sometimes, I go to get up and I feel like I can’t – I wonder what I would do if one day, I just couldn’t.

It terrifies me.

I feel like I have no control over it.

I guess I don’t.

Ah well.

So I guess for now, I will be going to the movies with my two favorite guys, sportin a walker and a mean right leg limp.

Sweet.